Rödluvan in the hospital
2005-01-25

It was January 25, 2005 when I should go to the hospital for a surgery in my eye.

The taxi was waiting for me. I felt so sad. The car drove trough the dark night. It was extra dark this morning. The taxi driver was very kind and that made me happy.

I got problem with my eye winter 2004 and went to the Eye Clinic at the Norland’s University Hospital. That doctor was so kind and I called her “Angel”. The diagnosis was cataract and as it should worse. The doctor decided a surgery. I only had one good eye and it was in the good eye and the cataract was in the good eye. That’s why the doctor decided to do the operation by narcosis. I could still see but it should be worse and that’s why the doctor had to operate now.

I was often walking in nature and taking pictures of the flowers. Near the pond at the Campus were small flowers growing. The name of the flowers was: Forget-me-not. I took a picture of the flowers and I went down to the pond every day to pray to God that her eye should be healed.

I had to go to the recovery ward. There they should prepare everything for the operation. The staff was very kind. I had to take off my read jacket and all my clothes. They were stored in a storing box. I got a green jacket for the operation. Now I was not red anymore, I was green! (the picture in green fake in Photoshop)

I had to lie down in a bed with white sheets. (not yellow as on the picture) I also could sit or lie in a reclining position.

I went shivering. I had order not to eat before the operation. The nurse put in a injection needle in my arm and I got drip-feed.

After getting the drip-feed I stopped shivering and I felt a pleasant warmth in the whole body. I also got also little radio. My bed was near the window and she could see out over the whole town. But it still was dark but she saw the lights of the city.

Later I had to lie down on a wheel table. The nurse pushed the wheel table with me to the operation hall. Now I had to move over to the operation table. This operation table was hard and it was as green as my green operation clothes.

There were strong lamps on the ceiling. As I was lying on my back I only saw al the lamps. I felt anxious.

A doctor in green clothes came in and he said that he soon should give me oxygen. He was very kind and that made me feel better.

Oxygen.

I  got an oxygen mask. Soon I should be anesthetized, Rödluvan whispered: “Dear God help me.” ………

……after I was anesthetized, I did not know anything, I did not dream. I even did not know I got a tube in my throat. I did not know there were doctors and instruments. Time was not existing anymore. But God the creator of heaven and earth watched over me.

Who is pinching me in my arm? I feel a tight thing
Zzzzzz
- Hello, are you awake, everything went on very well
Zzzzzz
Who is talking to me? Did God send an angel?
Zzzzz
Why do I feel the pinching thing at my arm again?
Zzzzzz 
Pyssssss, pysssssss pysss, what is that sound?
Now it is tight in my arm again
Thump, thump, thump, I hear my heart.
Now it is not tight anymore but I hear a beep.
Is there a computer?
Zzzzzz
Pyssssss, pysssssss pysss!
 Here  comes that sound again.
Oh, now I know! It must be an automatic blood pressure machine.
Zzzzzz.
Somebody is talking so kind to me. Is it the same angel again?
Zzzzz 
Are you awake?  It is me the eye specialist, the operation went out well.
Oh! It WAS an angel, my doctor.
I must thank the good Lor….
Zzzzzz
I wanted to talk but I could not.
Zzzzzz
- Where am I? I whispered.
The angel said:  - You are on the recovery ward and the operation went out well
Zzzzzz
I slept again
But finally I was waking up

The angel had disappeared but now a nurse was sitting by my side. It was good to have the nurse. My husband and my son were not there.

I waked up more and more. Now I could sit in bed and I looked around, still muzzy. I saw the room and the window and outside the sun was shining over the whole town. 

Rödluvan could see clear again!

I saw the glistening snow on the trees and on the roofs.

I was discharged the same day. A taxi drove me home. The next day I took a taxi to the hospital again to meet the eye doctor. The doctor was satisfied about my eye. Later I wrote a letter to the doctor with thanks for everything she had done. And I gave the doctor a copy of this journal. I also took some pictures of the doctor. But these are not for public showing.

I had to be home and stay indoors. But I was enjoying all the things I saw. The candle made of glass that I got from a neighbour was so beautiful.

I was daydreaming about the summer. I was longing for the colours of the flowers. I was thinking how I should look in all kind of colours. When I could see better I made Rödluvan in all kind of colours in Photoshop :-)

But it still was winter and spring was so far away. But my colleagues sent me flowers. Now I had spring indoors on the table.

And the neighbours came with flowers too.

I continued dreaming about the spring and the bird cherry that should bloom again. And when the spring came I could enjoy all the beautiful things in nature. And I was going to the pond again. Now for thanking the Lord for healing me.

Jesus said to him, “Receive you sight, Your faith has healed you. Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus, praising God. When all the people saw it , they also praised God.
  - Luke 18:42

Footnote
The operation pictures are fictitious. I took them at work at the Department of Nursing. The operation doctor is me, dressed up as a doctor.